Courage

"Courage is the most important of all the virtues

because without courage,

you can't practice any other virtue consistently."

 - Maya Angelou

photo by Mark Stevens | Glacier National Park

Inspiration All Around

Every day on my facebook page I try to share some kind of inspiration so

people would not feel alone or sad or they are not good enough.

I do this because I deal with these thoughts and emotions daily.

Emotionally I am a wreck and socially awkward.

I guess it started years ago moving to Fresno

and then other issues just piled on

and I never really got a chance to heal from anything.

I am not going to blame anyone for how I have been treated or what I have been through.

Ya know it is what it is.

It happened, its in the past.

I can not control how others treat or act towards me,

but I can control how I react to them.

Which lately, I have been reacting horribly,to the point of suicide.

Not once but twice in a two year period.

I just want to feel loved.  Who doesn't?

I can not say I have ever felt it.

I mean people say it, but its another thing to show it.

I was raised where you do not backstab your friends, you are honest with one another, treat others with respect and just be a good person.

So its hard for me to open up to others because

I am afraid they are going to hurt me one way or another.

Even socially I suck, because I am always thinking that people don't like me.

I told you I have issues.

Anyways, after a crappy marriage, I start working on me.

Like getting my thyroid regulated, losing weight, trying to put myself in social settings so I could be use to being around other people and trying to be the sunlight in someone's darkness.

A few people have been a huge source of inspiration for me.

Like Jo, founder of Deeds 4 Drew.

Its been a battle for me.  I have my good days and bad days.

But I still try to spread that sunshine, even though inside I feel like dying.

That is until today, when a very close friend of mine, Starla told me I was her inspiration.

I think I cried for an hour after seeing that.

All I could think was, Me? I am someone's inspiration?

How could I be someone's inspiration when I am hurting inside?

And it made me feel like every emotion I have been feeling

has been worth it.

Like what I have become because of my pain is helping someone else.

What an amazing honor and feeling to know I am making a difference.
Do not ever think you can not make a difference in someone else's life.
Inspiration comes from everything.
Pain, hurt, sadness, happiness, joy, you just don't know.
But be the reason someone smiles..

If you are not feeling good enough...

Listen to this song.

You are good enough.

You are Beloved!!

Have a beautiful day.

God Bless!

Chelle

The Truth Will Always Come Out.

I can not tell you how many times I have let a situation turn me into some

mad woman.

Even recently, I have let certain people get under my skin.

But I have to realize that  whatever their issue is, its just that... THEIRS.

When negative things happen, it does not help to come back with more negativity.  If anything it just makes matters worse.  Things being said that can not ever be taken back. 

What helps is staying true to who you are and walking away from the fight. There is absolutely no shame in walking away from the fight when it is time to walk away.

I know what helps me stay focused is my faith in God.

Whether it be reading my Bible, chatting with my sisters in faith or

listening to K-Love.

Find something that grounds you and take yourself there.

You can not change what others think about you,

but you can change how you react to them.

Don’t ever let a situation turn you into someone you are not. Be you. The truth will always reveal itself.

You are strong enough. Be true....and just keep being true. You are so very very very loved.

Have a blessed day everyone!

Chelle